I always thought of Mother Teresa as the embodiment of love. I still think so and am therefore somewhat shocked and confused at the seemingly contradictory communication I received.
"I will be here at your service as you move on your way with love and only love as your guiding star."
Ann: Mother Teresa, Anita* says that you want to put something on the blog.
Mother Teresa: Yes. I am grateful for the forum. I desire nothing more than to be a bringer of light to those of you in darkness. I lived my life in darkness. I did not know whether I served God or the devil, but I knew that the people I served needed a god to hold them, to lift them up and carry them home. I was proud that I was able to alleviate suffering in some small way but distressed that in trying to bring light to the planet I found my way down some very lonely streets. I wandered, I sought, and yet, for the most part, I did not find Jesus. Did you ever stop to think that there could be martyrdom in service, ego in charitable activities, and yet grace in affliction carried willingly within?
This I tried to do, for I was sore afflicted. I could not find my God in my work, yet in the end he found me and carried me home in his arms. It may surprise you to know that I have had much to learn when I arrived here and continue to have many tasks to accomplish to atone, not for the work I did, but the manner of it and the attitude with which I carried it out.
I was possessed of ambition, an ambition for good, and this is why my darkness would not lift. I pressed on, I served, I carried and cared for the poor and helpless, yet without love I was a clanging symbol. My focus was the conversion of each and every soul into the way of Christ as the Church decreed, and yet I failed to live as Jesus did with love for myself and others.
As his servant I created havens for the poorest of the poor. But as his lieutenant I marched with my own invisible banner above the bodies of the poor and helpless. I did not surrender though my life was in some ways a lifelong surrender. My mission was my passion and my passion was my own, not God’s. I failed to see as individuals those who came into my care and instead hoped to gather souls for the Lord, for the Church, and for the glory of the servants of same.
I ask that you in this time not tie yourselves to such a mast. More important than good works are good intentions carried out faithfully in daily life with humbleness and care for each soul that crosses your bath. We are not better, we are not saved, we are not anything more or less than the poorest of the poor. I acted on behalf of what I thought was love, but I did not love. I mistook my cause for God’s love; you do not need to do this.
I ask that you open your hearts in love, in the love that our Creator gave us when he created the first breath that moved the first life on this planet. Not ambition, not grand designs, not even defeat of evil, just simple love for the other will guide your feet and your hands in the right direction. Good works carried out by unloving hands may help, indeed may save lives, but they do not bring light to the planet, and this is what is needed now, and only love will allow that light to shine.
Raise your eyes to find your highest purpose and follow it with a missionary zeal, not for the mission, but for the propagation of love among all those you meet. This is what I ask of you, and I will be here at your service as you move on your way with love and only love as your guiding star.
December 28, 2019
*Anita Sacco. See "Recommended Channelers" under "Resources" tab.
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Exactly, David - there is no doubting any of the transcripts Ann has posted.
Since her death, there have been complaints that Mother Theresa supported the corruption of the Catholic Church and forced her patients to convert. Though her work was marvelous, it is right that she is critical of her own intent. No saint is perfect as some would like us to believe. I appreciate her self-analysis. No question in my mind this is her: only she would say this.
Many either fail to recall or fail to believe - religion never existed without politics. It was politics that actually invented religion.....and look at the United States now - ignorant, bigoted, uneducated people desiring of Trump to autograph their bibles....it seems clear humankind has taken several steps backwards in just a few years...the words emanating from WW11 "WE WILL NEVER FORGET".....have become forgotten by the masses. A spear into the heart of human decency.
How profound and amazing to read her realizations from Ann now. It certainly brings possibilities and insights into our own lives; without the invocations of religioys and societal guilt we inflict unto ourselves so unnecessarily and undeservingly.
Christopher Hichens wrote a short book called Missionary Position about her years ago and it pretty much said about her what she has said in this blog, he was very critical of her and if you read the book you'll understand why. After reading this blog it sounds like she has found her way and has the courage to speak her truth which is amazing.